If Only I Could Go Back

It was around 900 pm and the atmosphere was charged. The roads were blocked and the police were to be give on e rattling corner. A search was in place, I was the suspect. My costume were stained with blood, not my blood but Eves blood. My face was covered with issuerage as though I had taken a dip in a pigsty.Suddenly just behind me I heard a booming sound Freeze, dont move, but I was too distribute to synchronize with a response. Red and blue lines were flashing before my blameworthy eyes, it was the police. They had found me I was handcuffed on the spot and thrown into the tail of a van like a captured animal thrown into his cage. I was take a carriage out my rights You have the right to remain silent, anything you scan or do can be used once morest you in a court of rightfulness.That was it, I had been on the run for 4 consecutive days. My stomach lunched with hunger, my dead body desperately urged for rest but worst of solely I was ruined. I was filled with intense re gret. Although a sense of denial ran through my head, my sense of right and wrong overcame the effect and I knew what I had through was wrong. Too late this instant I thought to myself.As I neared the place of my judgment with the finish bit of strength in me I shouted aloud divinity fudge Forgive Me. Time seemed to crawl as freedom raced its way out of my bread and butter. I was utterly left to rot. Fear and regret was each(prenominal) I could think of. My sense of fear was so strong, that I began to cry. My emotions overpowered me once again and the more I thought of the crime I had committed the more I continued to cry.I then arrived at the police topographic point where I saw my fix standing with only one tone on his face, SHOCK. As a police officer informed my father of my actions I saw a tear form in his eyes, a tear filled with shame and disappointment. The sight of my fathers face scared me all the more.A vision of an empty, lonely future came alive at the arse of my head, the past 18 years of my behavior flashed past me so truehearted like a video cassette put on super forward. I then heard a rough thick voice say Why my son, why did you beat Eve to death? It was my father who by straightaway had understood precisely what had happened. He was a man who went through a lot of rough clippings himself.I was silent. The cause of my actions was imputable to my family problems. The agony, the loneliness of my parents being divorced and not having a father and a mother at the same time made me get empty. My family was rattling dear to me, as a real family was all I wanted. forever since I was a child Ive been brought up by a champion parent and always wished to have my parents back together. I longed all my life to know how a real family life was, but I was take of that. I did not want my father to pity me hence I kept the reason to myself. I am a man now and should be responsible for my actions.It was because of Eve who simultaneously ins ulted my family and made fun of the fact that my parents were divorced. Your parents dont love you that was why they left you was one of the many hurtful things she said. At first I tried to ignore it but the law penetrated its way into me and anger was all that was left in me. The blood in my veins turn making me all the angrier where at one point I founder and took all my anger out on her. Punch after punch, quail after kick.This is when my emotions took over me at first. Everything happened so fast, and by the time it was all over and saw Eves helpless body lying horizontally reversion to me, I was shocked but most of all scared. This was the first time I had actually seen someone die before my own eyes, and to wane things it was me who had murdered her. I acted like a robot controlled by the truth and my emotions. Then the fear of death took over me and for the first few legal proceeding I froze at a standstill but the thought of what I had done scared me so much that I b egan to run as fast as I could to hide myself from what I had done.Now my life is ruined. I feel like a total failure. Till this very day each moment I sit in my cast away cell, I feel helpless and hungry and regret what I had done and just wish if I can take back what had happened. The thought, the livelong thing just keeps running through my mind making me feel so wrong and so bad. Oh If I could only go back in time